Slander

"Slander this bitch", he tells me, then proceeds to slander me online, on his twitter, which had originally 4 whole followers, and on his facebook, to his 35 friends family and current flirts that he's trying to bed from behind a machine. He tells me I deserve it, that I am asking for it. Yes, because all women just love for an abusive sob to slander them and threaten them and publicly degrade and humiliate them, anything in order to avoid facing their own misconduct and deflect it onto them.
Women love being told they're crazy too, and sent links from online pages that "prove" it, as if pulling random links online automatically qualifies you as "Dr or MD", and permits you to psychoanalyze others to make them suffer for your inability to deal with your own inadequacies.
After sending me multiple texts threatening to call mental health services, social services, etc etc. And have my child taken away from me. I had to call his work and ask his boss to tell him to stop texting me while at work and threatening me. Of course, this means I am vindictive and trying to hurt him, because I dared call his work, and this means I am trying to threaten HIM, and cause trouble for him, make him lose his job.
Just as it was my fault that he cheated on me, and it was my fault that he was angry enough to smash his hand on the table nearly breaking it, and it was my fault that he took a large chain and threw it on the table in front of me and my daughter saying he was going to hang himself but the chain wouldn't hold. Just like the multiple times he said things like his blood was on my hands, and that he was going to smash my face or any number of other threats of his.
Yet, he calls ME the insane one.
Its what abusive people do, deflect to the point that he has his friends and family convinced of my supposed mental instability because they will believe anything he says as gospel.
I wonder, what they would really think of him were they to know the truth? About the public slanders he has thrown at me? About the hate campaign that has obsessed his time and energy? About the pathological lies, he'd lie about the color of the sky if you'd let him just get the words out. Sad fact is, he almost believes his own lies.
I wonder, what people would think if they knew the truth about the things he has done and said, the threats, the anger, the violence, the lies, the cheating, the him that noone saw, behind closed doors, the him that we saw. He can make anyone believe anything. But not me. I know better. I lived with him, I KNEW him.
So he writes this huge blog and twitters and statuses and whatever he can online for the world to see and think I am some sort of evil monster, while he remains the victim and martyr, who is concerned for MY well being. Desperate to hurt me, enough that he is willing to use my own family against me, my friends, my child, and no line is too low, from telling me that I never should have been born to I should kill myself to, I am insane and need help, to trying to take my only good thing in my life, my child and my faith, he is on a mission to utterly destroy me. Why? All this to cover up himself?
Yet, once something is online, it never goes away. The words, the lies, will be out there forever for me to defend if even possible.
Not that it should bother me so much, as it IS nothing but lies afterall, but we all know, that rumours spread and grow. And that sometimes, not even the truth can stop pure hatred, and that is what this is, obviously.

Help Me Please

For those reading this and have your own blog. Please help, I can't figure out what I am doing lol.
All my posts seem to have lost their photos. And the albums that held the photos was Picasa, it doesn't seem to want to keep my photos anymore, and they won't post on my blog.
When posting from my android, the same thing.
What am I missing?
I don't want to lose all the work ive done with this blog so far.
And I need to be able to post photos, yes, I NEED to.

False Advertising

Leave it to a celebrity to look like THIS and promote a makeup line claiming it to be the most "natural". Really? That's natural? She looks nothing like herself lol. Take a look for yourself and see....

Something New...

So I love my Android. And google is finally starting to grow on me. I have this wonderful new app called blogger. Scary thing is, you might end up seeing alot more of me here lol, fair warning. Ok. Now I gotta go to sleep. Nighty night!

Those who talk a big game usually know little

I often wonder about those who seem to burst with knowledge on a subject. You know the ones I mean, they use big words, and alot of them to try and confuse you, to make themselves look intelligent. Now, I'm not saying they necessarily aren't, it's entirely possible they know something I could stand to learn. But either they give me too much credit or they are trying way too hard to over compensate lol.
I have a friend on my facebook who does just that. Maybe he thinks by saying what he does, he can manipulate the subject and coerce people to believe him without actually researching if he really knows what he is talking about. I am never one just to take one at their word though.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not a rock, I do like to learn and grow. But do I have to change my mind and accept everyone elses answers as truth for that to happen? I think not.
Some think I am dogmatic, rigid, judgmental.
I just think I happen to be strong in what I believe and although I am constantly growing and learning new things, it hasn't  changed my mind on my personal beliefs or opinions. In fact, the more I learn, the more it serves to solidify that what I thought was actually true.
As a christian, I have my beliefs and I am always learning and growing in the knowledge and in my relationship with Jesus. For someone to come to me and tell me they don't agree and why is one thing. But to insult me while they're doing it, defeats their purpose. And then, to blow it off by saying I shouldn't take it personally, is just another slap in the face. Hey, I am free to believe whatever I want, to live however I want, but I must agree with everyone or else that means I hate them and that's not acceptable. I am free to speak out my beliefs but the second someone disagrees they cry discrimination and its a hate crime.
If I say I think people shouldn't strike, I am unsympathetic to the woes of the working class who are overworked and underpaid and that somehow translates into me thinking they should be homeless and starve to death. If I say that I believe homosexual acts are sinful, I am a homophobe and a hater. Speaking of homophobes, I will have to discuss that one later, I have alot to say about that term lol.
The truth is, as much as I seem to come against others, I also have strong words for those within my own beliefs system and how they conduct their public lives. I'm an equal opportunist, I will tell anyone off if I think it needs to be done. I have a strong disregard for those that use God or the church to hide behind while starting wars and being the whores and hypocrites they accuse others of being.
I'm surprised I'm not in jail already lol, but that's the way we are headed. Anyways. I've had my fair share of debates, anyone who followed me on youtube a few years ago, knows that. I've learned alot since then. Mostly about how sometimes it is better to just keep my mouth shut lol. But at the same time, I will not be bullied into backing down because some may be offended by what I say. I state what I believe. I don't take it out on anyone, I don't force it on anyone, and I certainly don't hate people for their choice to do what I perceive as wrong or sinful. Lord knows, I have my own to answer for well enough. If you are taking personal offense, or if you have guilt or issues with what I believe, if you are uncomfortable or angry perhaps its your own convictions that you need to address.
My facebook friend I mentioned? I believe he is highly intelligent, knows alot about many subjects. But I don't think it is right to tell me I know nothing of a subject or that he is more knowledgable than me when it is something that he has chosen to reject. He denies the truth of the bible, yet he claims to know what is true about it. He rejects Jesus as the saviour, yet claims to be the fountain of knowledge when it comes to the life of Jesus and his purpose and his teachings and what it means to be a christian. How can you be an expert on a subject you deny the truth or validity of? And how are you any better than those you put down when you claim to be peaceful, and openminded, when you are so quick to dismiss and judge? Nearly every religious or political post I have made, he has commented on negatively, putting it down somehow, even if it is just an innocent picture that has nothing to do with the topic he makes it about.
Sigh. And people used to say I was the argumentative one. Mom, will you change your mind now? I growed up, sorta....lol